2022

I wish I had some grand plan or catchy saying to share with you guys for the new year but instead I have a lot of unfinished starts. Last year I set out with intentions to post multiple times a month, have abs, build my brand on Instagram, have a bomb Youtube channel but instead I haven’t exactly hit all the marks. I guess sometimes that’s life huh ? We set goals, life happens then at the end of it all we look back with disappointment at what we “should” have completed. You know what I say to that F*** it. So you didn’t complete the list of things you’d hoped for. Don’t get me wrong I definitely support setting and completing goals but I don’t support beating yourself up when things don’t pan out perfectly. Trust me, this is a battle I fight with myself daily because I often tie my worth to my successes. However, that should not dictate how you see your progress.The small victories count no matter what expectations you set for yourself.

 I’ll share a few small things I’ll continue to work on from the past year. January 2021 I vowed to have abs and a more toned body. I said I would go to the gym, change my diet, and cut out sugar completely. Surprise guys it didn’t happen, instead I workout from home 3 days of the week, white cheeto puffs have become integral in my meal plan, and sometimes I choose two cookies over an apple. I thought by now I would have a popular Youtube channel with millions of followers and sponsorships. I planned to buy a boss ass camera, record makeup videos while discussing my self harm journey. Over time, I realized I didn’t enjoy making content for fear of it not being good enough. I’m 4 videos in with twelve subscribers (most being my family), I film on my phone and cringe at my editing but, do I have a channel ? Yes. Do I enjoy making my videos ? Yes. So I guess I didn’t fail, it just hasn’t become what I hope for, YET. I don’t have my abs but I’ve made improvements and all I have to do is continue on this path. I realize I want to prioritize my mental, physical, and spiritual health; I want my writing/Youtube dreams to be realized too  but sometimes I won’t check off all the boxes. In 2022, I hope we all learn to set goals, accomplish them, but realize it’s not all a wash if things don’t go as planned. Don’t bog yourself down with a laundry list of resolutions but instead commit to your journey with the full expectation of life happening. The new year is a fresh start so stay focused, enjoy each chapter, and choose the cookie over the apple every once in a while. Thank you guys for supporting me, I will continue to post but you can also check out my Youtube channel: Talking With AT (shameless plug).  God bless everyone in 2022. -AT